Godliness

I don't know why I was thinking about this. Probably because I'm completely immersed in Conversations With God. Or maybe because of yoga. Or maybe because I'm in love (which I usually am with some person, object, or endeavor). Or maybe because of all of them.
I haven't done this in a while and I usually have few opportunities that allow me the opportunity to do it, but I love going to church at night.

There is something more sacred, more holy, more trascendental, more enlightening (or...endarkening...[Colbert]), about being there alone at night with nothing but a few candles illuminating the icons. The Saints all seem holier. The pews, although empty, all seem more lively. The altar, that mysterious shrine beyond whose doors I'm forbidden to wander, is somehow more divine. And the collective experience, the private prayer, marveling, pondering, immersion of oneself into the all-encompassing realm of love, of Godliness, is so much more meditative and mystical when you are alone under the cover of darkness.

I'll write a blog about Conversations when I finish it, but here are a few relevant ideas:

1. Some people ask why God lets bad things happen. The answer is that he lets both bad AND good things happen BECAUSE he has given us the gift of free will and by NOT giving us the CHANCE to do good, which also allows us the chance to do the opposite, we wouldn't have free will. He loves us so much that he has enabled us the ability to choose and all he can do is sit back and watch us either make mistakes or not becuase to take away our ability to try and err would mean taking away the greatest gift that he has given us; our freedom.

2. All relationshiups that we have in life are opportunites. ALL RELATIONSHIPS...even the ones we have with inanimate objects. They are invitations, channels through which we can experience our own selves, mirrors out of which are reflected the image and likeness that we have chosen to experience THROUGH the person, object, or endeavor that we are in a relationship with.

THis is why we have to love e-v-e-r-y-b-o-d-y. I mean, I guess you don't HAVE to, but you should because each person or thing lets you exhibit your own highest version of yourself in a different way and therefore EVERY person and relationship is important. It makes me angry when people put "I hate back stabbers and fake people" in their profiles because these are the people who may arguably be the most essential in the creation of our highest selves because they allow us to invoke that self most consciously. It is easy to love someone who loves you. It is much harder to love someone who has hurt you, but doing so is a testament to just how big of a person you are, just how, in essence, godly you are.

Every moment is an opportunity for love and transformation.

3. Life is about creation, not discovery, though I think we can create discovery, or opportunities for discovery.

I love YOU.